Physically, I see that my countenance has changed. When I see myself in the mirror a light has come into my eyes that wasn't there before. Literally, they are brighter and more full of life. I feel myself holding my head up higher and looking at people directly in the face more often. My smile comes more readily to my lips. I feel myself walking with my posture straighter. I see people looking at me differently and I look at them differently. When I smile at them, they physically can't help but smile back...
Spiritually, I had a revelation. You see, before this conference began, I believed the gospel applied to the inside of me, but not the outside. Jesus was my righteousness, my strength, and my salvation, and He had made the inside of me beautiful through His work on the cross. I knew my worth in Him on the inside. But on the outside, I wasn't good enough. The love of Jesus had not pervaded how I felt about my appearance....I felt that He had not made me beautiful on the outside. But Christ, through this conference, has helped me connect both TRUTHS about the gospel. Jesus has made me beautiful on the outside as well as in. He made me, He intricately crafted every feature of the way that I look, He said "This woman will have exactly the features and the face and the body that I will use for MY purposes. I have created a thing of beauty." And I have realized that I am beautiful. Not in a conceited way, not in a self centered way, but in a very tangible understanding about what the gospel says about me....about who I am in Christ on the outside. And just like on the inside, on the outside He treasures me for just the way that I am. He not only accepts my outer beauty, He loves it. He made it... ^_^
I am still being transformed. Different things are happening to me as we speak that I am not sure about yet, but I know one thing. I am not stopping here. I am taking this newfound freedom to its fullest extent. I am a beautiful, secure woman.
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